Dear Readers,
Hello everyone. Well it has been about a month since I got in the booth, to write a la sum sum. My aim is to be more transparent with my readers, so I will be honest... ya girl was/is exhausted. My absence from writing the past month was not a planned hiatus. It just happened. The last six months have been full of transition for me; including jobs, schools, relationships, new state, heightened responsibilities... the list could go on. And I know I am not the first or last person who will experience change. But it still can be rocky you know? I tend to be overly ambitious and constantly push myself nonstop. All gas no brakes (but thank God for my family and friends cause I’d be in somebody hospital bed.) Yet, sometimes I fail to count the cost. My mom always says is cost to be a boss. You should have some real structure and discipline in your life to make things shake. And to be honest, ya girl was lacking. When I used to hear the word structure, I would think of shackles. Routines made me think I had become a robot. But I know from repeated lessons it is the only way I will be successful and reach beyond the stars. Ya know.. I got so sick the past few months because I could not just sit down and plan my life out. Prescription after prescription. I did not give myself a bed time. I tricked myself into thinking my best work comes from being last minute or under pressure. I did not take time to properly process and feel unresolved feelings and emotions about the changes, people, and new direction of my life. These things add up, and equal burn out. ANXIETY. Taking naps for 3 hours plus with a dash of isolation(I am dragging my own self). So, after feeling so many emotions and being SO TIRED (I cannot express it enough), I took a break. I did absolutely nothing. I began going to work and going to school, and going to SLEEP. If yall knew how sleep deprived I was, yall would cry for me. I have concluded that I will no longer write under pressure because that does not produce my best work whether I believe it or not. I would hate for writing to become a task, when it is my passion. I am learning that dreams without plans are planned failures. I should use my time better and stop counting the hours in the day. Every moment is useful for productivity and it counts. I have to allow myself time to reach my dreams and stop being wise in my own ways. I have to be patient and actually exercise faith instead of trying to do God’s job for him. And I hope this is resonating with someone.
Secondly, I want to thank everyone who has been apart of my blog journey. To everyone who has read, reposted, subscribed, and favorited a post; I thank you. I appreciate the support and know that seauxraven.com wouldn’t have reached half it’s height if it wasn’t for my loyal supporters. In 2020, something BIG is going to happen for Seauxraven.com. Of course they’ll be better posts, nice giveaways, and more controversial topics. But... something will be produced that will have a lasting effect on everyone! I’m so excited , and will announce the launching of _________ in late January.
I hope you all have a beautiful Christmas Eve. Please enjoy your family and friends and where you are exactly in your life. I find that holidays are often happy or sad . There seems to be no in between. Either we find ourselves upset because of missing family members, or we are somehow reminded of our failures as people are constantly asking us what’s going on or what’s next. Or maybe you had a successful year and you can’t wait to tell everyone about it. You may have all of your family home and this year is just bliss. Then some people are suffering from seasonal depression which is actually very common. A good friend of mine told me that when I am experiencing doubt and worry about things out of my control, to focus what is on my plate at the immediate moment. Meaning that I have to focus on the present and not fixate on the past or future. I have to live in my moment and focus on the immediate good in my life. Remember happiness and sadness are emotions that everyone experiences and please don’t isolate yourself during this season if you are feeling some type of way. Remember the reason for the season. Jesus. And to those who feel unloved or alone (those missing people during this season), God loves you. And with God comes an army of angels that will always watch over you and comfort you with peace. Merry Christmas, and Happy Holidays ! If you’re feeling down during the holidays here are some great resources below:
https://psychcentral.com/lib/9-tips-to-cope-with-holiday-depression/
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/imperfect-spirituality/201411/gratitude-in-tough-times
https://www.theodysseyonline.com/secret-hidden-wisdom-god
https://www.huffpost.com/entry/6-steps-to-survive-the-holiday-season-after-loss_b_6269858
With love,
Seauxraven